Obligatory Personality Quiz- just for you Kimmy :)

3 Names U go By: (is Poo-Nut hyphenated?), Super Noodle, Blondie

3 Screen Names U Have Had: sandboxtoy, Sekhmet, only a sci-fi gal

3 Things U Like about Yourself: my new-found stamina & fitness level, my intelligence, my confidence

3 Things U Don’t Like about Yourself: the paunch that won't go away, my scar, my forgetfulness

3 Parts of Your Heritage: Canadian, Irish, English

3 Things that Scare U: bees, clowns, uncertainty

3 of Your Everyday Essentials: shower, hairdryer, lipstick

3 Things U are Wearing Right Now: a smile, high heels, a dog collar (what? too much?)

3 of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists: Pink Floyd, Barenaked Ladies, old Bon-Jovi

3 of Your Favorite Songs: Shine on you Crazy Diamond, Brian Wilson, Wanted Dead or Alive

3 Things U Want to Try in the Next 12 Months: getting back to painting, running 10k, finally finishing the home renovations

3 Things You Want in a Relationship: friendship, silliness, laughter

2 Truths and a Lie: I am a stargate-a-holic, I have my own SGC uniform which I DO wear out in public, and I am perfectly normal

3 Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to U: sense of humour, confidence, strong hands (and the biceps of steel don't hurt)

3 Things about the Same Sex that Appeal to U: inner strength, artistic curves and forms, blue eyes with black hair

3 Things U Just Cannot Do: not care for animals, not empathize with people, say no to my mother (and this needs to change)

3 of Your Favorite Hobbies: running, playing dress-up, running my website

3 Things U Want to do Really Bad Right Now: eat Mark's "bunno-foce", go to Vancouver, "h'enh" the jello

3 Careers U are Considering: Goa'uld system lord, Super Noodle, the elusive PM02

3 Places You Want to Go on Vacation: VANCOUVER, Italy, Egypt

3 Kid’s Names: Dammit, Mini-Bastard, Butters

3 Things U Want to Do Before U Die: Travel Lots, Win a bunch 'o' moneys, Retire & do the fun stuff

3 Ways U are Stereotypically a Boy: I like the outdoors, I like cars, I wrestle

3 Ways U are Stereotypically a Chick: I complain, I say "OW" a lot, I can't leave home without my lipstick on

3 Celeb Crushes: RDA, RDA, RDA

3 People U Would Like to Complete This Quiz: Jello, Mutumbo, AMRK the alien

I'm normal.....well, relatively

It's amazing how something you didn't think was bothering you can really permeate your life. Then when the stressor is relieved, you can see how great it's effect really was. It's like a great weight lifted from your shoulders. You lift your head a bit higher, you step a bit lighter, laugh a bit easier. The world seems beautiful.

Yesterday I got the news. Although the test was something I wouldn't wish on anyone.....not that it was painful, but it was the most uncomfortable sensation I have ever had. After my surgery two years ago though, it was nothing. NOTHING could compare to that. The surgery that was the solution to one problem, and the omen of greater potential problems. For two years I have felt like I was broken. The physical scars healed slowly, but the mental ones, though hidden - wouldn't fade. Having a family wasn't a priority to me. I wasn't even sure that I wanted children. I discovered yesterday that that wasn't the point. The wait was over, the test showed a black and grey picture that looked almost like one in any anatomy book. A small mishapen bump on one side of the uterus was all that showed the trauma that my body had gone through. The doctor smiled, watching as the activated x-ray dye illuminated the cavity and flowed out through the falloipan tubes, showing a clear path. "Everything looks good." He said. Just like that. And the weight was lifted.

I'm not going to run right out and get pregnant. I still don't know if I even want children, at this stage or at all. The fact is, I'm whole. I'm normal. (Jello says I'll never be truly normal....let's face facts :) ) But, even on a rainy day like today, the sun was shining in my mind. I laughed, really laughed, and it felt great. And now I realize that the dark cloud hanging over my head I had come to ignore was finally gone.